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06.03.05 - 22:08 And so it is. Just like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me. Most. Of the time. And so it is. Feeling better than I have felt in a long time I am dancing. Dancing in an empty apartment. Dancing because I think I am on to something. I had a long talk with my Nana last night, my Nana who is 83 and gets me like not very many people do. �Bean� she said. �If you look at the downside, it�s not going to be very good.� �Right?� �I guess,� I said �Bean� she kept going �You have to make your life interesting for you, not for anyone else.� �But� I added. �Bean� she continued with a laugh �What was his name? I�m sorry, but with so many Grandchildren and their spouses I forget sometimes.� �Mike� I said �Bean, he doesn�t have any idea of what he lost,� she stated �But you are my Nana, you have to say that.� I said �Bean, I am also a person, I have my own opinions and thoughts about people, and you are nothing but amazing� she said �But sometimes I am so scared� I said �Of course you are dear, and be thankful for that, there is nothing worse in this life then feeling nothing, and I am not going to name names, but your Great Aunt Judy never did anything because she was so afraid of fear, and what a boring life she lived!� she said. �Nana?� I asked �Yes, dear� she said �Do you know what you mean to me?� I asked �Oh, honey, do YOU know what you mean to me?� She answered, �Bean, you are my link,� she added �Your link?� I asked �You know how you love to hear my stories from the past?� she asked �Yes� I said (hiding the tears that were starting to stream) �I am your link to a different time, but you are, just as importantly, my link to a time that is now� she said, and added �We are lucky to have each other dear, what we have is very special� �Nan?� I asked, �Do you want anything from Germany? We have really good chocolate!� �Oh, well, ok, but only one bar, I have to watch my weight!� she said �Nan, you are 83, have a few bars of chocolate!� I said �Hey, Bean, you know what I would love?� she asked �What?� I said �But not if it�s too much money!� she added �Nana, I have tons of money, what do you want? Anything!� I said �I would love a new Nutcracker,� she said �You mean like those wooden things from the ballet?� �The Nussnacker?� I asked �Yes!� She said �I had one years ago before Gramps died, and we put it out every Christmas, and for the life of me I can�t seem to find it, do you think you could find one?� she asked �Yes, Nana, I will find one this week� I answered �But I don�t want you spending too much money, I can send you a check� she said �No, I know that they are really inexpensive here, I will get one for you� I said �Ok, but you let me know if you need a check,� she said �Ok� I said, wiping my tears. �Is there anything you want from America, dear?� she asked �No, Nan, I�ve got it now, thanks� I said. � � 
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